IM SO OVER IT !!!!!

being an adult sucks !!!!!! I have the strange talent to get others mad at me without me even know how… this month it was brought to my attention at work that the rumors are ” I’m the bitch of the building because i go above an beyond” also that ” I think my shit don’t stink because i refuse to get involve in gossip therefore I’m always in my room and don’t share much with nobody” and even had been called a snake that wants no good. this last one is just a mystery for me why? well i left Thursday and it was all good with this coworker then Friday this coworker was serious and not talking to me. obviously i did something overnight what? God only know but I’m here trying to be the big person and not pay attention to all yet it bothers me I wish it didn’t but it does and I think is not fair. why do i share this here because i need to let this go before it eats me alive. I’m getting so tired of hearing al this stuff then being the bigger person when they all need something from me and go to my room to ask for help (when instead i wanted to say well not bc my shit don’t stink and I’m the bitch) its exhausting being the bigger person but I turn my self  to God a year ago and he will want me to keep a smile and to be humble. I still need to be a little more aware of my actions maybe people take my loudness as rude or another way and thats the problem after all it has happen so many times before because of the language barrier but oh well i guess is me I should be used to it by now ….