being an adult sucks !!!!!! I have the strange talent to get others mad at me without me even know how… this month it was brought to my attention at work that the rumors are ” I’m the bitch of the building because i go above an beyond” also that ” I think my shit don’t stink because i refuse to get involve in gossip therefore I’m always in my room and don’t share much with nobody” and even had been called a snake that wants no good. this last one is just a mystery for me why? well i left Thursday and it was all good with this coworker then Friday this coworker was serious and not talking to me. obviously i did something overnight what? God only know but I’m here trying to be the big person and not pay attention to all yet it bothers me I wish it didn’t but it does and I think is not fair. why do i share this here because i need to let this go before it eats me alive. I’m getting so tired of hearing al this stuff then being the bigger person when they all need something from me and go to my room to ask for help (when instead i wanted to say well not bc my shit don’t stink and I’m the bitch) its exhausting being the bigger person but I turn my self to God a year ago and he will want me to keep a smile and to be humble. I still need to be a little more aware of my actions maybe people take my loudness as rude or another way and thats the problem after all it has happen so many times before because of the language barrier but oh well i guess is me I should be used to it by now ….
Growing up I hated those words ” when you work you can buy it your self” or “lets see when can I have extra and we buy it”. I think i was not alone in this hateful feeling, in fact most children hate those words. So I grow up with the mentality that I will never hear those words again. I had to be a stay home mom when I had the twins because paying for day care was actually more than what i was going to make. So before I continue with my rant if you are a staying at home mom I am not taking credit from you. I decided this summer to be off so I can be with the kids while school start back again ( I’m a prek teacher) yet I found my self in conflict. I want some stuff and I have ask yet bills comes first duh!!!, so I have to wait. My birthday is in 12 days and I can’t get me not even a coke from me to me this is a biggie for me. so here is what i have think lately WHY WOMEN DECIDED TO STAY HOME WITHOUT ANY APPARENT REASON?
I admired and give props to those who sacrificed their independency to stay home with their children when they are little. this is a wonderful stage and no mom should miss it. Yet once the Kids are in school why not find a job? don’t you hate to ask for money? don’t you want to walk beside does shoes, that shirt, or those pair of jeans you like and just grab them and pay for them? is it me? am I wrong? every day I see more and more woman complaining their husband don’t pay for their stuff yet they don’t work. Some don’t even have kids yet and don’t even go to college. I might be selfish but why depending in another person. Dont you want to be a grown adult? pay your own stuff or buy what ever it is you want without begging or waiting?
don’t get me wrong I am not a woman of getting nails, hair, and make up I rather spent my money in clothes, shoes, camera equipment and vacations. what leads me to a whole new issue I heard women constantly complaining about not traveling, yet they go every two weeks faithfully to get manicures or pedicures ummm makes the counts and you will see with all that money you could easily buy an airplane ticket, but again thats each individuals priority. so back to main issue WHY WILL YOU WAIT???? go and became auto sufficient and spoiled your self anytime you want, and the best part is nobody can tell you anything because you work that money therefore you spend it in what ever it is you want. maybe I’m a little bit selfish or maybe I enjoy way to much the satisfaction of doing as i want when i want without ever having to wait unless I decided too.
Every year for my birthday I struggle to do what I want. In fact I never doo 😒. Since I got married 10 yrs ago my bday has become instead of a celebration is more a depresing day. Nothing good and exiting happens I do the same I do every day; work, clean, being a mom and wife and to make it worst with the years the people stop congratulating me. This really upset me because is just a bad day in general I figth with the husband, the kids are wild and cranky in geral pretty bad. CAN A WOMAN GET A GET AWAY !!!! Just once send me away for two days no motherhood or marriage responsibilities , just me my own self taking care of only me and no more ugh one day im just going to pack say im going to store and come back two days after.