This is how I feel today

I only knew of your presence for four short weeks,
but the love I felt for you is just so deep;
I wish people could understand how I feel,
so lonely and heartbroken, I just can’t deal;
I try everyday to go on with this life,But it’s just so hard, I keep losing the fight; You were just what I wish for everyday, as I heard friends and family good news of miracles in their lives, but yet you were from me so quickly taken away;Sometimes I wonder why I’m so sad and depressed,and I’m soon reminded that in my heart you left an empty space; they say and say “it just wasn’t mean to be”, But I cant help to think of what a wonderful mommy I’d be;I just want to SCREAM, let the anger out, you see I’m just so torn when I think of how you would have been a blessing But I’ll go on with a smile on my face, whether It’s real or fake,because I can’t change that fact the you from me God had to take;but you will forever be in my mind and heart,but now I just cry and cry as I see my empty arms I never got to see your face Or even give you a name But in my heart, you hold a special place And for that, I would never be the same Iโ€™ll never hear you laugh or cry Or hold you in my arms tenderly Iโ€™ll never know the color of your eyes ,But I will still love you endlessly



They are in fourth grade ๐Ÿ˜

Today I plan on drop the twiners and drive away free to cry. Yes I still cry on each first day of school. Yet my son asked if I could walk them “mom can you help me I dont think I can”  and I had to put my big girl panties on and walked them to their class. To the parents that see me I could pass like a mom that just droo her kid at kindergarten. My tears Could easily fool anyone. ๐Ÿ˜‚ why I dont know but is like each yr the babies are closer to leave me and I have my doubts about how well I will handle that. And then… Is the frustrating battle with my son. Having an ASD child is not easy when it cames to homework ohhh the joys. But most imp. Is his emational collapse when something or somebody is not quite like he wants too. Here we gooo another year. Lets pray and hope God will take control and this will be the best yr so far ๐Ÿ™‚ 


My students have grow

Although you’re not their parent, 

You care for them each day. 

You cuddle, sing, and read to them 

and watch them as they play.

You see each new accomplishment 

You help them grow and learn. 

You understand their language 

and you listen with concern. 

They come to you for comfort 

and you kiss away their tears. 

They proudly show their work to you 

You give the loudest cheers! 

No, you are not their parent 

but your role is just as strong. 

You nurture them and keep them safe 

though maybe not for long. 

You know someday the time will come 

when you will have to part. 

But you know each child you’ve cared for



Saying to our kiddos good luck in kinder